CNY-First Day

Apparantly today is not a so happy day for me...though is CNY just really don't know what's wrong with my dad today..after a tiff with my mum yesterday he suddenly announce we are not going out to bai nian this year...omg then i buy new clothes for what...my mum was at there complain but it seems fixed in the end coz what he say is FINAL...NO APPEAL.

He just say a word-'Sian(tired) and dun want go le.Actually can see through lah...after he have recovered from his cancer he seems very weak and easily fatigue often but CNY mah 1 year 1 time should at least make an effort to go ma...

Then he say we just go out for lunch and a temple only but don't understand why he still wear long pants(else cfm shorts) then drive out of the carpark how i know he make one turn back to the lobby and ask me get change and take oranges..dunno what changes his mind...so many question marks...

Erm..just go for 1 place only today..and that is my great uncle house...standard every year and every time got very few ppl there only but this year was slightly better saw my 3rd great aunt and my 2 Tang ge's as well...(including the one i open the bridesmaid door during wedding last year)stay there was like quite long and after that went to my nearby chinese temple for praying before home sweet home..

Finding dinner was the most difficult...2 food courts(koufu and kopitiam) in my neighbourhood are both closed but lucky still got KFC and Mcdonald who are open throughout CNY esp Mc which opens 24 hrs daily 7 eleven as well...in the end eats the kfc family feast meal...but seems to much fats...must burn out all.

Now CNY seems more and more meaningless to me...my dad seems to look like don't like going out and my mum side relatives is totally never connected with each other so for many years to come you can expect my CNY to be just a normal day to me..

Tmr is just going to be another free day @ Home (near to 0% my dad will agree going my grandmother house) just going for another reunion steamboat dinner at my grandma house at night(aft fri)

Anyway nvm i have promise my mum to visit my grandmother house on the 3rd day so it should be better in fcat i also have 1 year never visit alrd...but the most sickening thing is during CNY my mum have to resort to lying...(my dad was sick and cant come) but u just cant lie forever..what about next year..the next next year HOW?

From start knew alrd the relationship between my dad and my mum realatives are bad..that why every year just go my grandmother house only(my grandmother is very gd one) so kind of feeling sad...

Ok qute naggy today...so much to talk...coz lots of frustrations in my heart...better to say it out then keep it in the heart...

My belief-

Tomorrow will always be a better one!!!